For those who have never heard me speak of this, or those that have never read about how I became the envoy on this unexpected journey, you can go to the very first blog post of February, 2012, which explains it a bit.  But read on, as more is explained, though it is a jump in what most consider reality.  Without putting the entire part of the book that I wrote to tell of my journey here, I felt some introduction to this Archangel was necessary.   Suffice it to say, it took months of talking with Azrael, being slowly led to what the truth of all this is for me, then being given validation after validation. Though I continued to doubt, as I had a problem of worthiness in what I was being told, I was also deeply feeling the truth of it.  Miracles happened to substantiate what he told me.  Magic happened.  Perhaps I will weave my own story through this at some point, but for now, you’ll have to take much on face value and faith as I feel it is more important to get the words of the Archangels to you.

(Excerpt from the book)

Fabric of the Soul

At the present time and writing of this book I have come to learn and understand more about the soul, how it works, what this “one (whole soul) split into two energies (balance of yin/yang) to make a stronger one” means, especially to me.  It took some time for this to come through and be assimilated by the mind, as it buffeted against the ego a great deal – worthiness, etc. became an issue. 

It seemed no matter what kind of corroboration I received about being from Archangel energy, that I was Twin Ray, or Flame, to Azrael, and the memories that came up from the time of creation, I was still having a difficult time owning it.  This was pointed out by a friend.  After my “seeing” and “feeling” who this friend was, I realized he is one of my dear brothers of the soul, as he, too, is Archangel energy in form.  This was something he already knew, but did not discuss much, and said I was the first person who recognized him.  It was said that many from the realms of other dimensions would come into form, and at this writing I have met six others from the Archangel realm and I may have met more without recognizing that truth, or ascended masters as well, who have taken this journey for the higher good at this time.  In speaking with my friend about what I remembered in the early days of this planet becoming inhabited, he said he had the same memories.  I could no longer doubt what I had remembered, and not doubt that what I saw in him as Archangel energy was truth. 

This friend and brother pointed out to me that when I speak of Azrael, or repeat what he is saying, it is as though I am doing this in the third person, as though Azrael was outside of me and not within.  This friend sees a single, unified aspect when he looks at me.  This caused me to think very deeply about it, for it was true that I did this.  This caused a much deeper soul search and many questions came up about this, all directed toward Azrael.  This is what I was told.

“The soul is pure energy, of a frequency and color unique unto itself.  It holds a core aspect of the Divine within it.  This is true of all souls, all sources of energy, which is everything.  Like all energy, the human soul is made up of positive and negative charges to make a complete and whole circuit.  And like fingerprints on a human, frequencies are unique to each soul.”

The negative/positive energy has been shown to me as a yin/yang circle – yin being the negative and yang being the positive.  Each soul is balanced with yin/yang energy, however when in form, one or the other is reflected out as male or female in this dimension, as it is a dimension of duality.  Those that have gotten beyond sexual polarity have adopted the idea of androgyny, which the soul really is, in truth, but it does hold a negative/positive balance to have a whole, full circuit.

Twin Flames, as they are called, or Twin Rays, share the same soul frequencies.  Created as one soul, they are the negative, or yin factor, and the positive yang factor in one soul.  This oneness is carried within the soul, and made complete by the two factors.  In the soul within my being, both the energy of Magdalena and Azrael are carried equally, though the yin side is reflected out in form in this lifetime. 

The bigger part of our souls are not within us, though with humanity changing its vibration and moving toward ascension into a higher dimension, our DNA is changing to hold more of this essence within form and to also be better able to connect with it.  But much of our higher being is “out there” as a multidimensional energy, with the ability to be everywhere and anywhere and seeing things from a higher perspective.  It is not only your best guide, but also what you feel as intuition, a knowing from the third chakra.  Your own greater soul guides you to knowing exactly what it planned for an extension of itself in form.

That is why humans are always searching for a soulmate.  They carry the whole within them, and that is what feeling whole is about, but they are looking to “match their frequency” with another part of them that might be in form.  Sometimes another extension of that same soul is in form, but usually not.  The closer the frequency, or vibration is between people, the better they get along.  Should you meet someone that is your matched frequency or very close to it, the relationship will be very powerful indeed.  This is what I think of when I read Marianne Williamson’s book Enchanted Love.  It is magical, mysterious, miraculous!

Another thing I learned was that because the greater portion of our souls remain in a higher vibration than the extension of that within the form, it is possible to contact loved ones even after they have been incarnated into a new form.  There is still that part of them in that other dimension that will always hold the memory of all lives and be there for us, or guide us when it is our time to transition. 

At this point of my understanding, I found that my true soul name is an equal balance between Magdalena and Azrael – Magdrael.  The very name that came to me out of the blue, that I equated with my higher mind a number of years before Azrael made his energy known to me, is my soul’s true name.  More corroboration?  It is interesting to me that out of all the spellings I’ve seen of Azrael’s name, I chose to use the Hebrew, and it ended up being the one that balanced with Magdalena as Magdrael.

Now you know why I still might suffer from imposter syndrome.  There are days when I can absolutely feel all this as truth, then other days when the human in me kicks in and still has ego doubts.  I give my Archangel family a difficult time on those days, but thankfully, they are patient and help me through it.  Again, none of this makes me special.  I just have a different job to do than some others.  Each of us has our job and holds special gifts to bring the Light of the One, the Light of God, to all.

I have found that change is the only constant in learning.  What began as thinking Azrael was my “guardian angel” turned out to be quite different.  I wasn’t told this all at once, but rather gently guided along the way; as I could understand what I was getting and wrap my mind around it.  It hasn’t always been easy, as the mind likes to use logic, fit things in boxes all neat and tidy.  I realize now through opening to this balanced higher being and speaking from both sides of that energy that is one, that reality is more like our dream state where the mind does not question what is happening.  It allows us to fly, to be in more than one place at once, to play different roles within the same dream.  It is during our conscious state that the mind tries to contain these things within its known rules of polarity.  It is the mind that creates any of the dichotomy we see in life, for in truth, most of what the mind sees is illusion.  Matter is not solid, though it is interpreted that way.  Perhaps in truly knowing that we could walk through walls like Donald Shimoda in Richard Bach’s wonderful book Illusions, The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah, we could understand this.  Or if we truly believed in the power of the essence of who and what we truly are, we could soar like Jonathan Livingston Seagull in Bach’s book of the same name.  Remember, what you believe becomes your destiny.  So believe in the power of self, which is the Divine within you!

AZRAEL

Folded wings, shining, ebonized,

through ages of souls carried home.

The wings unfold in glorious brilliance.

Visible in their openness, white edges against deep purple/black, burn with the Light of God.

He glows profoundly, a yellow-white aura, a deep purple circle within his heart.

Features chiseled by the hardness of his task,

enhance the compassion, kindness, and gentleness filling intense eyes.

Glistening black hair flows, accentuating a face the color of rich olive.

Full lips speak soft words of loving comfort.

Defined muscles display the strength to carry his burden.

He looks to the celebration of reuniting souls, a smile on his lips,

but high-boned cheeks show the creased valleys of grieving tears for those left behind in mourning.

It is truly joy he carries to the home of holies, back into the Light.

But fear, hate, and repulsion are his lot; a sentence handed down by those who don’t see this Truth.

Their grieving human eyes see only a dismal hooded skeleton, devoid of all feeling.

An icon of suffering, but

Beautiful in majesty, and

Loving in manner, this

Angel of Death,

Azrael.

Early January 2010

Azrael, being what he is within my soul, was the first Archangel I worked with.  I began this as musing, and quickly that higher part of me came into it with ideas, and then took over completely.  I only got out a couple of sentences on my own before I realized I was typing suggestions.  It was then I just let the yang energy take it over.  At this point, I had not “remembered” the oneness of our energy.  The imagery poem of Azrael was written after this writing, so I “borrowed” a few of his terms.  It is also at this point I realized that the Archangels wanted to write a book and I was shown I could channel them.

Azrael’s Words

Death?

Whoever says death is dying is lying.

We are not our bodies, but spirits of God made manifest into form.

Death of the body frees the soul to go home from whence it came.

We choose this, though it seems naught to those left behind.

We choose to die when we do, either through feeling done with this life or from a misconception of illness, or by the contract made upon entering form.  Either way, our soul opens the door to freedom and it passes through.

If we could but understand that our lives here are so temporary compared to what our true lives are – one of spirit - we would not mourn the passing over of spirits close to us.  We would but understand that this is only a transition, a closing of an eye on one dimension and an opening on the other.

They are still here, around us, always.  Whether pet or person, they are here. 

Azrael, we cry out, why have you taken this body from my sight?

He answers – your eyes are not your true sight – it is only through your spirit that you can see truth.  See through the eyes of truth and you will see the embodiment of the same spirit around you.  They are not gone.  But your human eyes blind you and cannot see through the thin veil.  Believe now, or wait until the parting of body and soul comes to you for you to see truth.  Life in spirit is eternal.  Is that not what the Resurrection taught you?  Have you not learned from the ascended masters?  There is no death.

Yet you fear me.  I merely represent a letting go and bringing of you back to the light from whence you came.  I am an angel of God – fear me not.  I love you and would not do harm to you.  You must believe when I say to you that your body is not who you are in truth.  If you would only know this, you would live feeling fully loved by God, full of his Divine wisdom, full of grace and understanding of Who walks with you.  Many walk with you.  I walk with you.  Michael walks with you.  Gabriel walks with you.  Jesus walks with you and in you.  We are all One in Divinity.  We never end.  We are infinity.  We are from the beginnings and ends of time, of which there is no end.  The body is a blip in the lifetime of a soul.  Fear not.  Enjoy your life in this body and know you are loved and that you will return to the realm of the highest of holies.  Yours is the freedom to come and go, over and over.  But you cling to the smallness you’ve assigned yourselves.  Yet in truth you are huge, expanding, co-creators, and we are all here to help you succeed in seeing the truth of this.  But human ears are deaf.  Listen with the inner ear of your Divine Being within.  Then you will understand.   

If only you could see the soul.  What lays before you in death is a discarded shell that was only a housing for the true energy that you are.  If you could only understand that this human life on this earth is so temporary, and is actually just a giving back to Source to expand, then you would not be so bothered by it.  It is a time for you to co-create, to expand the Universe.  But the body is NOT who you truly are.  You get so hung up on the body in your illusionary life.  You are NOT a body.  You are pure energy.  Pure vibration.  Pure God.  The body is like watching a movie.  It is not real.  Your life is a movie.  In your new technology, you are finding it difficult to tell what is real from the computer graphics on the screen.  This will get you closer to understanding that your entire life in human form is just like that.  It is special effects that you are seeing.  It isn’t real.  Your soul is real.  The body and the earth as you see them are the blue screen that it is filmed against.  But it really doesn’t exist as you see it.  It is a diversion and a means of co-creation to expand, to learn, to push the All That Is into a new frame.  It is constant expansion.  But many of you are coming full circle in knowing who you are.  You are turning the movie back to God and returning to God while still on the movie set.  How wonderful!

Be joyous, if your human minds can allow, in death.  When you see someone who has “passed on,” be joyous for them.  They are merely returning from whence they came.  If you could see that, feel that, understand that, you would not feel so much loss.  I grieve over your human mind and heart loss.  I cry with you and for you because you don’t remember the truth.  But I am trying to bring you truth. 

The one who types here, my beloved partner, is getting overwhelmed at this point.  She knows much truth.  Hearing this is emotional.  But she knows it’s true.  All of you, deep down, know this is true.  You’ve been here over and over again, but you forget.  There is no such thing as death – for any thing, any body - animals, people, trees, or any other living thing.  There is no death.  There is a returning of the costume to the earth, but not of what you or they truly are.  That has been from the beginning of time and will always be.  So think of your body as a costume for a play.  Then you turn it in and move to the next costume for the next play.

Does this sound harsh?  Does it sound like I minimize your lives in human form?  I do not mean to.  For your lives in human form are courageous, challenging.  As the consciousness of what Abraham says in your reading of that, you are leading edge.  You are trying so hard to find the truth of your being.  But in the meantime of acting on this stage, you expand for all; you become God as You.  Each and every one of you.

Earth is beautiful and many of you do not want it to change in death.  You do not want to leave.  But know, for it is true that being in spirit form is much more beautiful.  You will see things that the image of the earth can’t measure up to.  Yes, the mountains, oceans, creatures of earth are magnificent.  There is more magnificence when you see things from the soul’s point of view, and without the suffering you bring to yourselves.  Pure beauty, pure form, pure love.  No fear, no suffering, no darkness.  It is only because you have forgotten these things that leaving the earth seems frightening to you.  Oh, if you only knew who and what you truly are.  You can get a glimpse of that if you believe, surrender and trust in the God within you.  You are all God’s children.  You are all powerful beings in God.  You are more of Him than you are of this earth.  Know that to be true. 

The more you are entrenched in your physicality, the harder it is for you to see truth.  But let go, and be joyous in your letting go.  You are so much more than you see yourselves.  All the others of us will tell you the same thing. 

How many stories have you read about “near death experiences?”  They see light.  It is the light of your Source, the Divine Consciousness.  Many of them speak of their reluctance to come back to their bodies.  Do you wonder why?  It is Home they see!  They see a bit of Home and want to stay, but because they are not done on your plane, in the movie of things, they come back, but reluctantly.  Home is your true place.  Shakespeare got it right.  All the world is a stage and you are players in the parts.  You chose the parts.  And you are having fun, no?  That is why you hate to leave.  It is fun.  As it should be.  But many do not have fun.  Many choose to suffer because they have forgotten so deeply who they are and what they are capable of, that they feel fear and pain.  No one has to.  But those that choose not to feel this truth create a collective of those to turn the tides, as it were.  You need a strong collective to move from suffering and despair to the light.  You choose individually, but can create a collective consciousness.  And in choosing thus, you create your own world.  You can choose one of joy, love, peace, well-being and all that God, your Father/Mother, gives you as their child.  Why do you find it so hard to receive this?

You see me at the end of your playing out your part.  You hate me.  I take you from all you know here in your realm, without you considering what lies beyond.  I bring you to reunion, to joy, to your true Home.  Don’t look upon me so harshly.  You see me as in the movie of your place, the ghost of Christmas future.  Dark-cloaked, gnarled fingers, with no sense of humor!  You are Scrooge and I am that black-cloaked figure pointing at your grave.  Not true!!  You are more, and I am more than you can conceive of in that movie with human mentality.  Some see me more truly.  I am bringing you Home.  To your true Home.  Back to the Infinite Source.  In all your power remembered.  It is up to you how to choose to live, as God allows you to be whatever you want.  Despair, if you choose it, is yours.  Love and peace, if you choose it, is yours.  Knowing that death is but another birth is yours.  It is all yours.  Why not choose the best of it?

I am playing the heavy in all this.  But I need to tell you, when things go wrong in your world such as famine, floods, earthquakes, “terrorist bombings,” do not blame God.  You always say, “Why would God do this to us?”  Know truth, my little ones.  You have also had a hand in doing it to yourselves.  And the earth, being another living manifestation of God, also grows, changes, and does this sometimes through what seems catastrophe to you.  Some people die in these, others do not.  Sometimes it is actually through forgotten contracts you have made before you came to this plane, or choices you’ve made during life, or karma that has not been wiped clean, again through choices.  But if you knew real truth, it is all actually illusion anyway.  It just IS.  It is not good or bad – it just IS.  If you knew or could see the true energy of yourself, you would understand what I am saying.  I will share with you a vision that my Twin Ray writing this book had a couple of days after an earthquake and tsunami hit Japan.  The yin of us was an “energy being” in this vision, seeing all things as they truly are, energy.  Her mind went to Japan and suddenly she was there, just hovering above people running in the streets.  The feeling of this was absolutely neutral.  She realized in that vision that things are not good or bad, it was the IS-ness of it – that was all.  Her thought in watching the people was, “If they knew truth, they would hold no fear.”  And that is the truth.  Things just are, and if you knew who and what you truly are, no fear or judgment would be held in anything like this.  Hard to wrap your mind around, I know.

God loves you and wants love and peace for you, but some of you choose differently.  You want control, to have dominion.  If you knew what you truly were, those things would not matter.  And if you knew what you truly are, you would realize that what you do to another, you do to yourselves.  You speak of knowing the Bible, of knowing the Christ, named Yeshua.  But you act as hypocrites.  Did not Yeshua say to love your neighbor?  What do you think this means?

While on this earth, God allows you to play as you see fit.  You have free will.  In that allowance, sometimes you choose wrongly.  Sometimes you are greedy, controlling, not seeing you are all one from the One Source that is.  But that Source allows.  It is not God that brings things to you – it is YOU.  Always.  Some people do not believe this because they cannot understand why a young vibrant woman would die of cancer, or a child would be born blind or with a life threatening disease.  Part of the problem that people have with life is that they cannot accept responsibility for their thoughts, actions, words or feelings.  Many always find someone else to blame, even God.  But if you see a young woman die from illness or an accident, or if you see a child born defective, please know that there is a reason for this that is so beyond your limited human mind that you cannot see it.  There are many reasons for these things happening – learning a lesson not learned in a past life, or oft times sacrificing so that others may learn.  You see, these things are known when you come into your form, they are contracted, but you forget.  You see life, the whole of your life in form, as the real thing, the truth.  And some of you think this is it – all there is.  But it is not the real thing, nor is it truth.  This life is temporary.  Your true life is infinite.  It is interesting that most often, people that are doing the dying come to know truth in their final moments and find peace in that dying.  It is those around them that do not.

I know I am getting to rambling away from the subject of “death.”  But this soul as a part of me, and who is typing for me here through our vehicle, has been with me for a very long journey – from the creation of the soul we share.  And being that we are what we are, messengers in the realm of death and dying and share the same message for you, I feel that I must say what others from this soul family may not.  I feel a deep responsibility to you, and to be honest with you, as hard as that honesty might be.  And I feel it is my place to talk of the truth of your being, as I am the one that seemingly takes you away from all you know on your world.  So I continue with this for a bit.

Humanity’s biggest problem, other than feeling separated from God, is they dislike taking responsibility for their choices.  If they can’t find a human to blame, then they blame God.  The ego, or false god, is their guiding factor instead of their heart.  Here is where the entire problem of humanity lies.  Original sin is not what you think.  It is the separation from God by the ego.  It is the birth of the ego, which does not serve you in truth.  Surrender to whom and what you truly are and you will find the magic and magnificence of the Christ within yourself.  Then death will be as it should - a return to the Source.  A joyful time.  You can always choose to go back to earth, to expand, to co-create.  It is just such a shame you don’t remember once you enter the body the power you truly are.  As Yeshua said, “Ye are all gods.”  And you are honestly here on your world to be in joy.  That is your choice.

Even when all around you seems to fall apart, you can be lifted into a higher vibration of truth and trust in the Source of All That Is and be separate from what is around you.  It doesn’t have to be a part of who you are, what your life is.  Think of those living in impoverished areas.  There are people from those areas who rise above it all and become living examples of reaching higher, digging deeper into who they are.  It is the same for all.

The two biggest miracles and mysteries of a human being are birth and death, but death is the bigger of the two.  No one asks so much whence comes the personality, the soul, from the miracle unto itself of the body coming into being.  No one considers that a tiny baby has its own sense of being beyond the brainpower of itself.  How many marvel at that?  If they do, they don’t dwell on it.  But it is a mystery – where does it come from?  No one really ponders that nearly as much as where it all goes after the death of the body.  People spend a good part of their life thinking about the other end of it.  People think upon and hope that something carries on, but not really wondering from whence it came.  Isn’t that interesting?  The creation of form to house a soul is so much more than pro-creation of a male and female.

But death is the greatest mystery of life, as it is surrounded by more emotion than any other time – love, fear, guilt, regret, loss and relief.  Sometimes one feels relieved over the death of a loved one, but then feels guilt at that relief.  No guilt should be felt, as the relief is the allowing of letting go of the fear, the constant mystery surrounding it all.  It is a relief to let go of this unknown gnawing.  You look into the mystery, but don’t see concrete answers and it wears on you and plays with your mind.  It eats at your hopes of an afterlife, of hopes of the reality of a soul.  These are the biggest fears one faces looking at their own death or at someone else’s.  The interesting thing is, during one’s own death, it becomes easier to understand the mystery – to see beyond the veil into the light of truth.  It is those left behind that suffer the merry-go-round of emotion.  Feeling relief, or wishing that the person dying would just let go brings much guilt.  But these feelings come from a mixture of love and confusion and much fear in that confusion.  It gets tiring for the brain, the human mind, to deal with this constant pulling into the unknown.  You want to trust that there is a God that awaits you.  You want to believe that your short life was more than what it appeared to be.  That in the scheme of things, there is much more.  You are also afraid to lose what you have acquired in this life, whether it be material or otherwise – love, knowledge, a place in community, the beauty of this earth.  And in seeing someone else dying, you feel your own vulnerability – you see your own inevitability lurking.  You see the shadow side of things and it brings fear.  So of course you are relieved when someone else finally lets go.  You also feel the release of the burden of worrying, caring for, and an end to the every moment of facing the truth of your own demise.  You can then get on with the allowing of these things to move back into the corner and not be reminded constantly of them.  Your guilt is not worthy of your time.  Just understand where it comes from.

But there is an answer to all this and it comes from faith – it comes from an unshakable belief that you truly are your soul and the body is just a temporary house it lives in.  And yes, it is a mystery, and one that in dying you finally remember.  Those who can remember prior to death are the ones that truly live.  They can live without the fear of losing one thing, as they keep the perspective of all things being temporary except for their Being, which houses all things.  These are the people who can truly dance.

There is no death, as you would think of it.  There is only eternal life.  There is only the All That Is, God, call that higher energy what you will.  It manifests from a place of love.  You are all loved equally.  You are a part of God.  Therefore, you can be as a god.  You believe in your human lives that genetics make you who you are.  In the true world, the true place of your being, you are what your Creator is.  Doesn’t it follow?

I am Azrael.  I am what you think of as the Angel of Death.  You fear me.  But, if you believe in a Divine Consciousness and in your spiritual self, you will love me.  For I am the one that takes you back to where you came from.  And I love you.  I have been told by my twin energy, my angel who shares my energy, that I carry souls on gentle and loving wings.  I truly do, and she wants me to pass this on to you here.  I thank her for that.  She sees me in Truth.